I only breathe because I’m alive
I live because there’s still breath inside me
I still wake up each and every day
because there’s the next day.

My mind wanders.
My thoughts scatter.
My vision is blinded
and the future is so blurred.

I can’t smile, for you have taken that
away from me and filled me with fear.
You have taken my ability to speak
and poured shame all over me.
My thoughts are disturbed
for I’m no longer thinking for myself.

I’m drowning in a pit of despair.
I’m lost and cannot find the way back.
You are beautiful they say
but beauty doesn’t heal wounds.
Beauty doesn’t stitch rotten wounds.
Beauty doesn’t bring me peace.
I long for peace day and night.
I pray for peace day and night.
Will I ever be free?