Do you know what pain is?
Pain is not being able to smile.
Not being able to fake a smile.
Pain is crying your eye balls out.
Begging yourself to hold on.
To hang in there.
To stay strong.

But you’re hopeless.

You’re helpless.
You’re weak.
You’re exhausted.
Tired from trying too hard.
Tired from wishing for a better tomorrow.
Tired of breathing.
Tired of living.
You feel like you’re not living at all.
That you’re just existing.
That if you’d vanish.
Nobody would notice.
Nobody would care.

Pain is losing yourself.
Trying to find yourself.
Pain is hating yourself.
Trying to love yourself.
Pain is looking at the mirror
And not recognizing what you see.
Pain is continuing living.
While dying inside.