I’m still wondering
What did I do to deserve this pain?
What did I do to deserve this torture?
It hurts most to have a weakness and never talk about it
It hurts most to be blamed
for the weakness you never caused
It hurts most not to know how to change it
It hurts most to be punished
with a weakness you cannot change
It hurts most to be thrown with the stone of death
instead of the bread of life
The painful thing is that you really
would like to change it but you can’t
You really want to try your best
but you get your worst
I’m slowly losing my soul,
my heart and my spirit.
Oh God,
please intervene
Please intervene in my life
Because I can’t live it anymore
Because I can’t handle the torture
Because I can’t do this anymore