I tried imagining life without you –
life without your voice,
without a friend,
without a brother.
I tried to stay strong –
and believe that all would be well.
But all is not well.
Really, life is hell!
I tried to imagine –
how we could have been together.
How it felt to hold you,
laugh with you…
and dance in the rain together.
I tried to imagine your face –
the silly smile you would have had.
And, those thoughts made me smile…
for a short while…
but the truth is:
they bring more pain than happiness.