I am sorry, little one.
I won’t meet you,
I won’t clap eyes on your scrunched new face –
The promise of truth and innocence yanked from my mauve, dark place.
I am sorry, little one.

Reckless, impossible, but it has to be –
No firsts for you, too many lasts for me.
From a frenzied moment, you just grew –
But because of me, there will be no you.

I am sorry, little one.
A gift from a stranger, one that won’t be seen –
I will forever wonder who you would’ve been.
I am sorry, little one.

I have learnt my lesson, and it’s because of you –
I’m going to straighten the bow of this ship, it’s gone so, so skew.
I am sorry, little one.

I can’t believe tomorrow I take your life –
When it’s not mine to take, nor my right.
I fear for your soul, and a little for mine –
But I will make it right, you’ve been a sign.
I am sorry, little one.