A life worth reliving,
Better than before
A memory I would love to recreate
Love I would adore to remake
A past to undo
Loving was my greatest fear
I couldn’t do anything freely
Afraid to mess it all up
Afraid to lose everything
Everything I was giving away,
Somehow
Blind, I was
Until I lost it all
I couldn’t see
Awake,
I was alone
Emotionally depressed
I was numb
I couldn’t feel,
I couldn’t love
Everything was the same
Love or hate
I couldn’t tell
Physically exhausted
What was, and
What is,
Are all the same
Happiness on forward,
Longing for yesterday,
Present.
This emptiness is too much to bear