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Maybe if I allow myself the time to breathe then everything won’t seem threatening. Lately I have been scared. Scared for my life, for my family, for my future, scared from the inside out. I have been trying to come up with ways to calm down and believe that everything will be alright. But what if it won’t?

As a Christian, I should be equipped with faith, even when things before me are not convincing. I should have faith and hope an unpredictable life will miraculously change and be more comfortable and relaxing. But it hasn’t been that way ever since I was born. Now how do I have faith in something I haven’t felt?

Somebody needs to teach me how to have faith.

I’ve been crying in the corner, praying in tongues hoping to at least find a job if my mother can’t find one. She took me to school with the little money she didn’t have, yet look at me, struggling, sending CVs at the same time. How can I believe when I am barely surviving?

Young girls have turned to ‘slay queens’ and I have tried to avoid the life by getting my degree. They laughed at me and said it’s a waste of time. I said I would rather waste my time than give myself off to vultures who’ll consume my youth for material things. Yet look, these slay queens seem to be the ones living the life. I thought my qualifications would set me apart, but I seem lower than they are just because I chose to keep my pride and dignity. But why is life so unfair?

Somebody, please teach me how to have faith.

I wake up, look myself in the mirror in the morning, and all I see is potential. I go to the streets and look for a job, but all they see is what I don’t have. They mostly see desperation so they offer me their bedroom keys. They wear their suits as they lie to me, saying that’s all I need to survive. So I make the right choice because I love myself and walk away with an empty stomach, hoping one day the right door will open. I am starving for success yet they see me desperate and immediately undress me. Do they know I am fully clothed with my degree gown?

Teach me how to have faith before I self-destruct, suicide note already penned down. Someone tell me it will be alright and I won’t have to lose my dignity.

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What would you say to the writer to give them hope?

10 Responses

I don't know the writer personally but from what I have witnessed on social media is that she eventually got her dream job and recently bought her first car.

mnt…@gmai... · 3 months ago

Unemployment tear us up serious,,,imagine trying by all means to get the best education to uplift your life only to sit at home with your gown and qualification next thing you are 36 and useless,,,our very own leaders dont practise what they preach,,,they are way too old while holding to position then our graduates are home 🥺🥺

Nthabishy · 3 years ago

Hold down to Jesus Christ is risen a Man from the dust .have faith in God and trust your self, with God all things are possible. God time is the best, be positive 5 mins is a enough everyday to keep positive thoughts. Good luck

Klvin · 3 years ago

You're not alone in this. I don't know... but when I read this, all I see is strength.❤ I don't the struggle but I see resilience✊ I see your worth greater than that of diamonds and money....❤❤❤ Never Give Up!❤❤

Dexigner · 5 years ago

I know the pain the writer is going through I have been there but not as worse as the writer all I could say keep on sending your cv one you will find a suitable job and you now gonna believe never mid what people say to you Just do things that you know that they can be brighter to your future so that you can be able to support your self and your family

Aletta · 6 years ago

I would say dont give up, God doesnt do thing according the way we want them , he has his own way of doing things, you should wait upoun him at the right time he open those doors. As born again christian , we dont give up on him , even when there is nothing that we see physically but we know that he will come through for us.

Seipatima · 6 years ago

UneMployMent strips poor people their dignity, it gives you no choice nor options. I don't know what to say...but do what's best for you. If you don't want to do soMething uncorMfortable, then don't do it. Rather be a lonely lion than a crowded sheep. Peace.

Mtibza eM · 6 years ago

Yeah hey. Who feels it knows it. I can totally relate to what the author has written about. I am an unemployed graduate myself, I thought everything will be all good after I've graduated from varsity but it turned out I was wrong. However, I remain confident in the victory of good over evil. I'd advise the author to remain hopeful and stand firm in the face of all the struggles. You should never get tired of doing what is right, surely there is a bright light at the end of the tunnel. The struggle we face on a daily are shaping us for the future, the harder the battle the sweeter the victory. All shall be well, it might not seem like it now but trust me it will. Hold the faith!

Ernest Moleko · 6 years ago

never give up

Noreen · 6 years ago

Its alright. Keep trying in the end you will succeed. Don't give up

Chichi83 · 6 years ago