I know what’s right. No I don’t. I think I know but do I really know? Or am I just covered by the thought of me thinking I know too much?
I care about myself. I know what I want in life. I know what I can tolerate and what I doubt I’ll be able to do. I’ll protect my life to make sure at the end of the day I’m happy.
Growing up I was often found to be around people. It was just a cover up, in reality I was an outcast; the girl that was found to be alone, the girl that didn’t belong. When I had people around me it would feel like a cover up, something that was there to hide who I really am. I saw a group of people and they seemed so good and so cool. If I wasn’t part of them I would feel like I’m not cool.
Sometimes in life, without the approval of others, you may feel like nothing. It felt more like a curse as time went by. After spending time with them things just changed. If you weren’t like them they wouldn’t be happy or want you. I became isolated from others and I was back in my own bubble, my peaceful bubble as I liked calling it. My differences really showed me who I really am. Being alone taught me that I’m a different person, I can handle what I think I can and know the things that I can’t.
I learned that it’s OK to be an outcast. It’s OK not to do what other people are doing and that I’ve got every right to pick who I want and who I don’t.
I taught myself to care more about me, give myself enough attention, value myself and take good care of myself. Above all of that, being alone taught me how to protect my life.
Tell us: Do you think it’s good to be alone sometimes?